Coming back to a place that has not changed since I was last there did a great deal of distortion to my sense of time. 'It seems like only yesterday" started floating through my head. As a noted baseball catcher used to say, "It was deja vu all over again".
It is also very foreign feeling to turn on the radio, as I did in the car, while waiting for someone. I went through all the stations and could find NO PBS! Rush Limbaugh was raving his lies and hateful, criticisms and opinions,as usual, ministers preaching horrible results as though they have a direct line to G
od, and everything else was country and western music or rock! I decided that I need to keep ALL my opinions to myself for the remaining two weeks.here.
Everyday like this feels like 48 hours and, I suppose, that will seem to give me life extension...but it doesn't feel like that when even thoughts of oblivion start looking good. I'm with someone with whom I spent childhood and she gives me constant reruns of my life.
Today I'm luckily being visited by a friend I haven't seen for 42 years. I think I'm now in some alternate world because the past is wafting over me in heavyh clouds of images. The only thing unchanged from the today is the old lady who looks back at me in the mirror and the aches in my joints.
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Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
IT'S DEJA VU ALL OVER AGAIN
President Obama has pledged 30,000 more troops for Afghanistan. For the past eight years we have heard more and more troops being deployed, more deaths, more traumatic brain injuries, more limbs blown off, blindness, and all sorts of horrible conditions that would not have survived in previous wars.
We hear the lies of the fear-mongers and 'Chicken Littles', which so many foolish people believe. It amazes me how little people are truly informed and how many think they are informed because their lying sources tell them 'we are the truth'. Old people confuse threats that 'they' are out to get rid of old people. There are too many with companies cutting, rather than raising, COLAs for their pensioners. Ah, that ubiquitous 'they', not easily answered when questioned closely to be defined.
Sometimes I wish I truly believed in a Heaven and Hell in the afterlife...I could dream that, at last, I would be somewhere among the 'good' people. However, those whom I see as 'good' are seen as 'bad' by others. Did Solomon train St. Peter for the job> It will truly take a remarkable committee by God to make all those judgments, will it not? Heaven must have to have an organizational manager 24/7 as people pour in through the Gates. Did God only decide to have a Heaven after Christianity began? Would he have considered the first humans, native Heavenites? Are they the only ones allowed to build gambling casinos? Would the Neanderthals have been considered human enough? Do modern inventions make it to Heaven or do dead inventors have to work to build them there? Does Heaven have entertainment centers, TV, clubs, parties? What is the entertainment there? If you have been good in your life on earth, but uneducated, do they have schools in Heaven? Do people have to eat in Heaven? If so, who does the cooking and cleaning there? Is there sex in Heaven for those who didn't have enough on Earth? Is Heaven for earthlings only or will there be beings from other planets there. If there is a God, is he for all planet life or only Earth?
Such are the many questions I ask to which I get no answers. Even though Ministers claim to speak with God, they can't ask him these sorts of questions, apparently, since the Bible is God's word and he didn't start speaking much to man until after his son was killed and resurrected. After all the begats and story about two people starting the human line, there don't seem to have been historians prior to that except those who drew on cave walls and that hardly gives word to my questioning. It seems those cave drawings were more memos like, "Dear, I took the horse and went for a ride." Or it might have been a diary entry, "On my way back to the cave I was ambushed and killed a few neighbors."
If you get to see all your loved ones in Heaven, then Heaven must be a deja vu experience right? Do residents find old friends on something like a Heavenly Facebook. Do they have Heavenly computers? Are the doomed souls part of the space debris....gosh, I really have to stop this. I can't even find the answers on Google...most frustrating!
We hear the lies of the fear-mongers and 'Chicken Littles', which so many foolish people believe. It amazes me how little people are truly informed and how many think they are informed because their lying sources tell them 'we are the truth'. Old people confuse threats that 'they' are out to get rid of old people. There are too many with companies cutting, rather than raising, COLAs for their pensioners. Ah, that ubiquitous 'they', not easily answered when questioned closely to be defined.
Sometimes I wish I truly believed in a Heaven and Hell in the afterlife...I could dream that, at last, I would be somewhere among the 'good' people. However, those whom I see as 'good' are seen as 'bad' by others. Did Solomon train St. Peter for the job> It will truly take a remarkable committee by God to make all those judgments, will it not? Heaven must have to have an organizational manager 24/7 as people pour in through the Gates. Did God only decide to have a Heaven after Christianity began? Would he have considered the first humans, native Heavenites? Are they the only ones allowed to build gambling casinos? Would the Neanderthals have been considered human enough? Do modern inventions make it to Heaven or do dead inventors have to work to build them there? Does Heaven have entertainment centers, TV, clubs, parties? What is the entertainment there? If you have been good in your life on earth, but uneducated, do they have schools in Heaven? Do people have to eat in Heaven? If so, who does the cooking and cleaning there? Is there sex in Heaven for those who didn't have enough on Earth? Is Heaven for earthlings only or will there be beings from other planets there. If there is a God, is he for all planet life or only Earth?
Such are the many questions I ask to which I get no answers. Even though Ministers claim to speak with God, they can't ask him these sorts of questions, apparently, since the Bible is God's word and he didn't start speaking much to man until after his son was killed and resurrected. After all the begats and story about two people starting the human line, there don't seem to have been historians prior to that except those who drew on cave walls and that hardly gives word to my questioning. It seems those cave drawings were more memos like, "Dear, I took the horse and went for a ride." Or it might have been a diary entry, "On my way back to the cave I was ambushed and killed a few neighbors."
If you get to see all your loved ones in Heaven, then Heaven must be a deja vu experience right? Do residents find old friends on something like a Heavenly Facebook. Do they have Heavenly computers? Are the doomed souls part of the space debris....gosh, I really have to stop this. I can't even find the answers on Google...most frustrating!
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